Exhausted

The past few days have easily been some of the most exhausting of my life. I wish that I had been able to find the time (read as: time without someone reading over my shoulder) to update this blog in the midst of everything, but alas, I will have to do the best I can to "capture" the mood in retrospect now.

My ex came down to visit (mostly to see my mom, mom's idea, etc) last Sunday and just left yesterday. I was so worried it was going to be horribly awkward, but for the most part, it was alright. Of course, I took 3 days off work to make sure that my fiancee and my ex were never left alone together without me, so that probably helped curb some of the awkward. It was really nice to spend some time alone with my fiancee since my ex took my mom to Syracuse to see my sister. Mel and I never, ever get any time alone together, so it felt good to have just the two of us at home. We mostly just RP'd and played WoW, but it was without interruptions for the first time in...well, basically forever.

In other news, my mom is still a complete basketcase over the dog's death. She woke my father up wailing and sobbing last night shortly after Mel and I went to sleep. I refused to get back up because there isn't anything I can do, I was home with her all day long and she didn't say more than 10 words to me, so I don't feel like she wants me to try and comfort her. She wanted Krista to come down and take care of her. She rejected me. My fiancee. My father. My brother. Everyone. It was all Krista Krista Krista the entire time my ex was here, and now that she's gone no one knows what to do. I know it's going to take time for her to come to terms with the dog being gone. I know her heart is broken. I know she's in pain. I don't know, however, how long the rest of us can deal with the way she's acting. It's like living with a zombie, and there's nothing we can say or do to get through to her at all.

I also haven't been sleeping very well at all. A lot on my mind these days. All of which I will try to get onto the screen and into this blog eventually, but for now, it's back to work. Hooray.