I never imagined that I could feel anymore pain than my soul already possessed, and yet, somehow...somehow, at this very moment, I feel more shattered and destroyed than I ever have before. I would love to give you all a reason why, but sadly, I do not have that knowledge myself. I simply feel empty and lost...moreso than I thought was possible. I should have stayed away...should have stayed hidden...should have at least tried to stay out of sight as I was before...but he was right there...right there...right in my arms...perkele...
I cannot control my life anymore
Feel a need to leave and breathe on my own
I remember all the broken songs of our life
Maybe one more wrong will make it all right
I just really need to be alone now…
~Tony Kakko from Breathe
Maybe this camping trip will help calm me down again. Calm both of us down. Or all four of us. This is so much harder than I thought it would be...
Sellie...? I am here for you as much as I am here for the Siren *cuddles* If you need me at all, please let me know. Know that you can always lean on me, for anything
ReplyDelete*hugs tightly*...I know this isn't easy for you...*smiles sadly* Hang in their Duckie...I hope you feel better...